• It's Ellie's 2nd Birthday!

    I have mixed emotions in welcoming my little ninja's second birthday. First, of course, is this pandemic and the rising number of cases daily. We had to cancel E's party and instead planned a small celebration at home with just us and our yayas. I count myself lucky because we were still able to stay open throughout the ECQ, despite limited manpower. Thank to you all mommies, who continuously trusted and supported us throughout this time. Second is realizing that my baby girl is growing up so fast that it amazes me how much she can do already. Looking at her run and discover new things makes me both happy and quite emotional.

    Focusing on the positives -  I wanted to write a short letter for Ellie so she can read it when she gets older. Hopefully websites and blogs are still functional in 16 years. 😅

    My dearest ninja Ellie,

    You're turning 2 tomorrow. I am so proud of who you are becoming. I used to feel bad because everyone says you look like your dad.. Now that's you're growing up, I see more of myself in you and I couldn't be happier.

    You are brave. You push yourself to reach something - climbing beds, chairs, sofas, or whatever can help you achieve your goal. Eventhough our dogs are bigger than you, you still like to play with them.

    You are smart. You have memorized the alphabet and can count from 1-20. You know how to identify so many animals and things!

    You are loving. You hug anyone of us who cries and tap our shoulders to comfort us. 

    You are generous. You have a good heart.

    Baby, I pray everyday that God guides you to grow up to be someone of which He can be proud and I thank Him everyday for giving us our miracle baby. 

    Thank you for making me a mom and I wil try my best to do you proud. I love you. ❤️

  • Deflated Balloon

    This past week has been one of the worst weeks of my life.

    We spent the week before in Hongkong. It was a fun trip! We spent 2 days in Disneyland which is truly the happiest place on Earth! I swear, even at the age of 34, my heart still dances with excitement when I see Mickey Mouse. Haha!

    It rained unexpectedly when we were there and the perfect 18C felt like it was 10C! I only brought a single spring jacket. I didn't expect it to that cold.. and of course, I got sick the next day. I had high fever and cough and because we were all in the same room, everyonce caught it. :(

    Ellie's fever went up as soon as we got home. I brought her to her pedia the next morning because I was scared of bronchitis or penumonia. She was really feeling irritable. She wanted to be held all the time. She was crying too. Dra. Teodoro allowed us to go home with the condition that we bring her to the ER if her appetite decreases to half her usual. At 3:00pm, Ellie has only drank 10oz of milk. I texted Dra. and she told us that it's better to confine her. We rushed her to CSMC. Ellie's fever that time was already 40.3C. I was so scared. Thank God my parents went there to help me. I wasn't feeling well that time so I was at the brink of blacking out.

    My poor baby was traumatized with the residents at the Pedia ER because they couldn't put her IV properly. They inserted the needle and FISHED INSIDE! They did it 4x!!! I get that Ellie is chubby but man, please don't practice with my daughter. My dad stopped them and requested for an Anesthesiologist. I talked to her pedia as well as Ellie's godmother doctor, Isaah, and they contacted the best one, Doc Marmie. She was the one who took care of me when I delivered Ellie. Doc Marmie was able to get a hold of Dra. Oracion, a pedia anes. She was fantastic. She was able to get the IV in, even with no visual! Amazing!

    Anyway, we stayed at the hospital for a total of 3 nights. Ellie wanted me to carry her even when she slept so I stayed with her in bed. She cries EVERY SINGLE TIME a doctor or nurse comes into the room and we all know how many times that is, even in the middle of the night. Her eyes were puffy and her voice was hoarse from all that crying. It took all I had not to cry too. I had to suppress my emotions because I had to be strong for her. I had no choice.

    Truly, being a mom makes you stronger than ever. I don't even know how I survived the week. I still feel like a deflated balloon. I'm just glad that Ellie's home safe and sound now. 

    Thank you to everyone who prayed for her recovery. Some even sent me private messages for prayer intentions in Church. I really appreciated all the support.

    Thank you Lord for healing my daughter. Nothing is impossible with You.

  • Happy Birthday My Little Ninja

    Dearest Ellie,

    I can't believe it's already been a year since I delivered you. Time really does pass quickly. I still remember when Papa and I were unsure if we will ever be blessed with a child. We prayed so hard for you and God delivered His promise when the the pregnancy test turned positive on November 23, 2017. I can still recall how I woke up early because your dad was going to the gym and I remembered that Dr. Milla instructed me to start taking my meds to regularize my period. I took the test "just because". I wasn't even wearing my glasses and I had to squint to see the results. I quickly showed your dad but he was still in denial! He went to work like nothing happened. It was only when he came home that he jumped with joy! Anyway, I took another test, this time using Clear Blue to make sure. It was faint but it was definitely positive!























    Because we really couldn't believe it, we took so many pregnancy tests that month! We got so excited everytime it turned positive!

    The journey wasn't easy. I had tachycardia, gestational hypertension and gestational diabetes starting my second trimester. I was hospitalized 3x and had to take so many vitamins. From going to the doctor 1-2x a year, the hospital now became my second home. There were so many tests to be done to make sure that you will be healthy. I thank God that even though I was weak most of the time, He protected and took care of you. You always got a 9/9 for your BSP.

    I was induced at 36 weeks but you refused to come out! I was stuck at 1cm for 2 days! Haha. It was at 12MN when my doctor decided to give me a C-Section. You were finally born at 1:38AM with your Papa cutting the umbilical cord. 

    When I was out of the fog, Mama was so happy to see you. You were so cute and small. It was amazing to see you in person!

    Oh, how we love you pretty girl! The next months went by so fast. You learned things quickly. Now, you are a smart, bubbly and very malikot little ninja. We are so proud of you baby. Always remember that we will here for you no matter what. We love you so much!




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